As I quickly approach my due date for #2, I find myself agonizing over the fact that I simply haven’t done as much to prepare for this one as I did when Lovey was on the way. Every once in a while, I have to stop from “beating myself up” for not repainting the nursery and putting up a new wall border. I try to justify keeping the theme the same because we have elected not to know the gender of this one in advance either; so a nice, neutral Noah’s Ark theme should work well the second time around too.
Okay, so I justified that one away (at least in my mind)…now what about the fact that I haven’t run out and purchased a layette for the new baby? Does that make me lazy, cheap, and uncaring or just a tired, still-working, pregnant mom of a two-year-old? I haven’t figured that one out yet…I ask myself regularly: “Am I setting up #2 for a lifetime of hand-me-downs?” (Of course this possibility won’t play out so much if #2 is a boy.) I have been trying to justify my thoughts and actions as “early sharing opportunities” but have the nagging sense that I am just trying to do what is convenient for me at this time.
I have spoken to several people who tell me that the baby won’t know the difference and not to sweat the small stuff, but I can’t help but wonder…what happens ten years down the road when we are flipping through photo albums and #2 notices that their nursery was exactly the same as their sister’s, or that they are wearing some of the same clothes…I know I have a while to wait, but how do you approach that conversation?
I think I need a stronger antiperspirant!